Two Months

Went to work. Stayed two hours. It's really, really slow right now. And really boring, I hope it picks up soon.

Got great news today at work--We're so slow that there's lots of extra vacation days open, which means I was able to book the weekend of Anime North off. It was all gone when I tried before. So, now I can go. Which is good. I think. It'll be fun. It always is.

Not much else is these days.

Taela and I aren't getting along. We're not exactly fighting, but... We have good periods and bad periods and I think we're getting into a bad period. It just means we need some space from each other. It happens every so often.

Still, I feel lonely. I don't really have anyone else around. It sucks. Maybe I need a hobby...

I'm so stressed. I feel like I'm going to snap. I need to get away. Badly.

My mother's driving me crazy. She's stressed and she's unhappy and she rotates between smothering me and snapping at me. I know why she's doing it, but... That doesn't mean I have to like it.

Today's the 21st. It's two months exactly it doesn't feel like it. I'm still as much of as a mess as I was two months ago. Maybe more, since I've had all this weighing on me for two months. I've also had a lot to think about and big decisions to make. I haven't even come close to making them yet. I know I have to, but... I guess I feel if I keep putting them off, they'll go away and my life will go back to normal. Wistful thinking, huh?

I just wish I could leave my entire life behind. The mess with Taela. Work. My mother. All this emotional baggage I'm carrying. I wish I could just get rid of it all. Run away to another life. But it doesn't work that way.

Still, I'm not gonna focus on that. I'm going to be happy that I can go to Anime North and think about the rest of it later. I'm going to make this a good day.

I can go to Anime North, Leafs won last night. This is a good day.