Writing

Still in Brantford, still baby-sitting and considering the future of whether or not I'll ever have children. They have their good days and thier bad days and nothing in between.

Other than that, I've been concentrating on my orginal story idea. I set a rule for myself, I have to sit down and write at least a few pages every day. It helps. What I'm writing doesn't always fit in any particular place, but it's story material and can be used at some point. Besides, I need to get myself writing more often.

So, I set some scenes, ones that I'm not sure where they fit yet, to Meg and Taela. I was definitly smart to send it to both of them. Taela was wonderfully encouraging as always, but not particularly helpful. While, Meg had some wonderful suggestions and some nice construcitve criticism, which is more what I needed.

Praise is wonderful, but I also like being told what I'm doing wrong and how I can improve it. That's what's going to make me a better writer.

Not much else going on. I'll be home at the end of the month and then we're doing Ad Astra. Yay.

Sleep Problems

Ever since I was a little girl I've had trouble sleeping. Not like in an insomniac kind of way, but in a deep, sound sleep kind of way.

I've always been plagued with nightmares, weird dreams, sleepwalking, and what I call my "episodes".

What happens is I have a deep, disturbing dream and then I appear to wake up, I either sit up or begin to talk, or often in the more recent years, I actually get up and go talk to someone, usually waking them up sine this happens after I go to sleep. I appear to be fully awake, but I say something outrageous, then I go back to bed and end up in a deep sleep.

Most of the time, I only have a very vague, if any, recollection of what happened. Usually, whoever it is I talked to will fill me in on the morning. Of course, my mother and most of my friends are pretty familiar with this by now, but I think it probably still freaks a few people out--or the ones who don't realize that I am asleep.

I started having these "episodes" in about 1995, or at least that's the earliest anyone can recall. Back then it was pretty rare, once or twice a year. Over the past ten years or so, they've escalated to about one a month.

There's no trigger that I know about, nothing that tends to cause them to happen. They just do. It's one of the oddities of Michelle, I guess.