Emotional

Two weeks into school. So far, so good. I've been doing my readings and trying to keep up with my homework which is a huge improvement from my behaviour both in high school and when I was at Loyalist. I've also already started working on my first assignment.

I'm settleing into a good grove here, though I find that I'm more emotional than usual. I find myself crying more than normal and getting upset over little things, but also getting emotional in a good way (or at least a non-traumatic way). I'm crying at the drop of a hat these days, sad tears, angry tears, sentimental tears, you name it and they're flowing.

I think a lot of it is that I've been facing a lot of changes in my life the last fews month. Both with school and personally and I've been under a lot of stress. Probably doesn't make me the easiest person to put up with and I guess I should be grateful that none of my nearest and dearest have run screaming in the opposite direction yet.

I figure that once I get into the grove of school and things settle down a bit, I'll start feeling better. I really do think its a case of too much happening at once and not sure how to handle it and it's either cry or scream and well, I think crying is healthier. Also, probably less likely to drive people away.

I have so much to be happy about. I have a wonderful family, amazing friends and a fantastic boyfriend. I'm working towards fulfilling my goals and I'm getting closer. All the pieces in my life are sliding into place, so why do I feel so close to tears so much of the time? It makes no sense to me at all. Maybe, I'm just not used to being happy and I can't handle it... That would make a certain twisted kind of sense, at least if you knew me. I do like to make things complicated for myself.