Silent Screams

I'm so stressed right now. I feel like I'm going to break any day. It's just keeps getting worse and I just want to escape my life, but I don't know how.

My mother's driving me up the wall. We've never had the most open relationship, but these days it's just really starting to bug me. It also make me miss my father all the more. He was the intermediary between the two of us, just like I was between the two of them. I could also talk to him about anything and I really miss that.

I could deal with my mother, when my father was there to temper her out. She was practical and responsible and tempermental and really controlling. But that was okay because he was irresponle and fun and easy-going. They balanced one another. But without him, she's pretty hard to deal with.

It was so much easier when he was here. I want him back. I want my old life back, but that ain't gonna happen. No matter how much I wish it would. It's not fair. It was all so much better seven months ago. I just want my old life back, is that too much to ask?