150th Post

This is my 150th post in this blog and I wanted it to be a happy, cheery post, but that turned out to be impossible.

You see, I'm in one of those low-moods, where I don't think I'm ever going to suceed at anything, as a writer, or a person. They come every so often and don't last long, but they're kinda depressing.

First of all, my sleep cycle's totally messed up at the moment. I'm falling asleep at 6 a.m and waking up at 4 p.m, which is not the best thing for me, I must admit.

I'm full of doubts about school. I want to go and I'm going, I'm just terried I'm making a mistake. What if I'm not capable at suceeding at anything? What'll I do then?

I'm even full of doubts about my writing. I write something and I hate it, which is odd because at least I have been writing lately, which for a while I wasn't. In fact, I've been able to update a lot of my fanfics and such, but I stilll hate everything I write and I fear that I'll never progress past writing fanfic. Don't get me wrong, I love fanfic, but I want more. At least, eventaully.

Yeah, this is one of those moods, so hopefully it'll pass soon.