It's February...

You know, I intended this post to be bitter-sweet and reminiscant. I was going to talk about my memories and how painful this time of year is for me.

Instead, it's going to be angry. I don't like me attacked for no reason, when I don't think I've done anything to deserve it. I might not be the easiest person to get along with, but I don't think I'm the worst person in the world either.

Someone, who admittadly I'm not crazy about, came out and basically attacked me today. This person is important to one of my best friends, so I've tried to get along with them. However, apparently I haven't suceeded.

Maybe it's time for me to cut my losses with the friend in question, but I don't know how to do that. I hate to give up on people. Especailly people who have stood by me during my times of need.

However, maybe there's a time when it just gets to be too much. Maybe, what that friend and I shared is gone and maybe I do need to move on. I've done it before, let go of other friens because of outside influences, even though I still cared about the friend.

I don't know, maybe I'm just angry because I don't think I deserved what I got tonight. Or maybe, it's the fact that, this is a rough time of year for me and I'm more on edge than usual.

I just don't need this kind of crap, I ahve a stuff to deal with. I have stuff in my personal life, I have my own issues, and I have the looming anniversary of the worst day of my life and now I have to deal with this on top of everything?

If tonight is any indication, I think this going to be a horrible, horrible month...