Decision Made

So I made my decision about college. I chose Sir Sanford Fleming. Now, before anyone jumps on me, it was my decision. In the end, I made it without telling anyone. Yes, it was what my mother wanted, but she would have been just as happy with Brantford.

Honestly, there was no decision I could make that could please everyone, so I decided not to try and please anyone, but just do what was best for me, Michelle.

I sat down and I thought about what was best for me and that was Fleming. Baby steps. I’m not living at home, but I’m close enough to visit fairly often. I need that, because whatever problems I have with my mother, we are close and I know I’d need to see her a fair bit.

I know I had some of the same reasons for choosing Loyalist and I was miserable, but it’s not the same. I’m in a different mental place and a lot of what happened at Loyalist, well it was outside stuff that I just allowed to take over. Also, for all that I was close to home, I still had no friends there with me, didn’t really have anyone close by who I could lean on--which I might need.

However, Taela’s sisters will be in Peterborough, even if she might not be, I have family there, I know it really well and I feel comfortable there. It’s a good place to go for a year, to get myself back on my feet. This year is going to be a huge test for me and I guess I just think Fleming is the best environment for that. Also, it’s a good program with a curriculum I like. It’s only one year which I find is a plus. It just felt right.

I put a lot of thought into this, telling myself not to choose Fleming, because I assumed I’d be doing it for the wrong reasons. But, I kept drifting back there, it kept popping into my mind and eventually I realized that it was what I wanted.