Fragile

Normally, I would consider myself a fairly strong person, but lately I've been feeling weak. Not in the physical sense, but in the emotional sense. I just don't feel like I can cope sometimes, which is odd because my life isn't anymore stressful now than normal, not that that's saying a lot.

I don't know, I just can't find the strength to fight, nor do I really want to, since I'm not fond of confrontation. Besides, I'm just taking it all into myself and obsessing over it and finding myself getting more and more fragile. It's like I'm about to break any minute and that's not a good feeling.

That feeling of vulnerability and of lonliness isn't a good one for me, as usually it means I do stupid things in my need to feel whole again. I just need the comfort, the reassurance that I'm not alone and I guess I seek to feel part of something.

Luckily for me, I have great friends and a wonderful family. I have been people who I can tell I need to escape and they give me a place to run too. That's a good feeling, to know that there are people who will help pick up the pieces if you crumble.

Still, as much as I'm glad for the support, I wish I didn't need it. This didn't use to be me. I never used to have to lean on people so hard, never used to feel so fragile, so easily broken. What's happening to me?