Housing Choice

I checked out three different apartments today, all of which were for next September. The first place was nice, but it wasn't what I was looking for and it just didn't compare to the other two. However, now I have a dilemna.

I honestly loved both places, but for totally different reasons. One represent freedom, everything I don't have at home. I could have the whole experience there. The other place, was very homey and comfortable.

One place was further from school, but closer to the downtown. It also had very few rules and a hot landlord. He's a firefighter too, and about my age. Tempting. But probably not conductive to the kind of studying I'll need to do. Still, it might be fun and really is a nice apartment.

The other place is rented out by a very sweet older couple. It has a lot of rules and restrictions, but they also seem prepared to dote on a tenant and I really liked them. Also, it's within walking distance of campus, so... I'm just afraid, that it'll be a little too restricting, just like living at home, but it would probably be the better enviroment to get serious studying done.

This is it. My last chance. Another strike and I'm out, or at least that's what it feels like. I've screwed up a lot and Hell, even I wonder if I have what it takes, but I'm giving it a shot. I'm serious this time and I'm going to do what it takes. Which is why I've given up men and relationships and all things connected until next year. That said, it seems obvious which house I should pick, but...

Freedom. It's a tempting idea, especaially since I've never really enjoyed it. I guess, it's hard to overcome my own self-destructive tendancies. I know what's best for me, but...

Of course, this is all assuming that either place wants me. Hopefully they will, since I promised to let them both know by Monday.