Guys and Friends

I'll say it right now. I don't really understand the opposite sex. This might be why I'm the one of my group of friends who's always single.

Part of the problem, is that I'm obsess too much, so I'm trying to curb down on that. I'm also trying to be much more upfront and you know tell the guy I like him or even call im occasionally, even if I hate doing that. I'm just not thinking too far in advance, I figure that's my best course.

But, I still don't get guys. For example, and this goes for both sexes, I've never understood the point of jealousy. I just can't wrap my mind around the idea of beig bothered by innocent, platonic friendships that just happen to be with someone of the opposite sex.

I'm also really independant in some ways. I'm not going to bend my life to fit someone else's. If I have plans, then I have plans. I'll compromise about somethings, for instance go to a party that I really don't wnat to go too, but about other things. No way.

I do know that, when it really comes to it, I'd much rather try dating in the informal sense, than rush into a real 'date' with all the fears and expectations and nervousness to go with it. If you're just hanging at a party, you can always leave when you want (especially if you live two blocks away). Or you can pretend that you're just friends, like you always have been.

I just wish that this whole thing was easier. But then, I guess that would take the fun out of it, right? Is it fun for anyone? It just seems like work and drama to me, but being alone sucks, so you make the effort.

On a differnet note, I got the pictures from my party developed. Some pictures that Ty and Taels really don't want circulated. A really nice group shot of Meg, Tonya and I; some nice indivdual shots of Ty, Tonya, and my mother respectively; Some funny pictures, mainly involving Taela, and a few weird ones.

But the pictures show that we had a good time. Though, my couch still smells like creme de menthe, thanks to Taela and who knows if my shirts going to come clean. However, fun was had by all.

See, in life some things are really confusing and others aren't confusing at all. Guys are confusing, friends make sense--in fact, they're one of the most wonderful things that life has to offer.