Self-Awareness

So it was an intresting weekend and I made a view observations about myself and the world around me. Which are as follows:

You don't know what you've got until it's gone. You never really appreciate something (or someone) fully until you've lost it or thrown in away. You can have something and not really appreciate and then decide you don't wnat it. But once it's gone, you realize how special it was and try to get it back and it's a whole lot more difficult the second time around.

I'm selfish. I want what I want and Hell or high water I mean to get it. No matter who I hurt. Well, that's not true. I do draw the line at deliberately going after someone else's boyfriend, at least as long as I can put the face on the girlfriend. If I know a guy has a girlfriend, but I've never met her, that's harder, look at the golf tournament party. But, other than that, I really don't take other people's feeling into consideration as much as I should.

Big familes and small towns suck. Or at least, they're not conductive to privacy. It's nearly impossible to try and conduct a relationship (or anything) quietly, without speculation and interference when you have either of the above and when you have both, forget about it.

What goes around, comes around. For years, I've teased Taela about the hangovers that she gets and I don't. Well, I got my own back this morning. God, was I hung over. It was terrible. I realized that the main reason I didn't get a hangover, was because usually I puke my guts out that night, so there's nothing in my system the next day. I think I prefer that method, actually.

I need to work out. It's pathetic how out of shape I am. One little snowmobile ride has me aching all over. I used to go out every weekend when I was small and I don't remember it hurting like this. But back then I was a lot more fit. I really do need to get in shape, maybe there's a plus in going for an outdoorsy guy.

Opposites can attract. Maybe you don't have to have a lot in common for their to be a spark. As long as a guy treats you well and you enjoy his company, maybe that's enough. Maybe you can learn to compromise on the rest.

There are a few other lessons that came to me this weekend, but I've said enough realistic things, we don't need to get into any more of my bad traits or short comings. Nor do I really want to talk about something that I'm not sure is anything yet, so no specifics. They might come later, but I don't want to jinx myself.